‘You going to try for a girl?’


I’ve probably heard this question 3,842 times


If I had a dollar for every time someone asked me, ‘You going to try for that girl!?’ I’d be rolling in money.

I’ll admit it, That question bothered me for awhile. ‘Listen lady at Target, How do you know I wasn’t trying for a girl the first several times?!’

I’m a forever ‘Boy Mom’ to FOUR beautiful, physical, loud, farty, full of life boys. It’s a crazy thing. I see little girls sweetly doing an activity and it almost feels foreign to me. The gentle nature of it.

It took me awhile to process this. When I was a little girl, I never dreamed about my wedding day. I dreamed about being a Mom, and that vision always included a little girl.

I had My first, Kase, and then about 12 months later I found out I was pregnant with twin boys. I’m not kidding the first words that escaped my mouth were ‘Im so screwed!’ I mean who says that!?

Apparently, this girl.

Those couple years were tough. Three boys under 19 months tested us in ways I couldn’t have imagined. And then a few years later we saw a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel and BOOM that fourth pregnancy rocked our world. It was difficult to get pregnant the first few try’s, and then we fly to Miami for a weekend and just like that. Sayyyyy What!!?

Everyone told me, ‘Your Mom is sending you a little girl! I can feel it!’ And then I hear the words over the phone (after my geriatric pregnancy blood test) ‘We detected the Y chromosome. You’re having a BOOOOOOOOOY!’ (que Darth Vaders voice in slow motion). I nearly fainted and I’ll admit it. I cried.
How could it be? FOUR BOYS? But I gotta say… I wouldn’t change it for ANYTHING in the entire world. DeanO has completed our family in a way we didn’t know was possible. His big bros are sweet and gentle(ish) and love him so hard, every dang day. I love watching it all unfold.

These little people make me so tired, but I realize now, this was all meant to be. This crazy life of ours. These boys of mine. I feel so lucky to be their Mom.